I sometimes forget that it takes courage to live this way.

Courage is defined as “the ability to do something that frightens one” or “strength in the face of pain or grief.”

I was listening to a business podcast earlier today with 3 entrepreneurs on it, and one of the hosts stated that running a business takes courage.

It was good for me to be reminded of this fact because I rarely think of myself as a courageous person. In fact, I sometimes wonder to myself why I’ve been burdened with such an overwhelming desire to pursue happiness to the fullest, live to the point of tears, love with every ounce of my being, and refuse to settle for a “regular” 9 to 5 job where I feel like a cog in a wheel and inevitably (it usually takes me anywhere from 6 to 8 weeks) begin to feel a cloud of darkness looming over me each day when I’m going into any job and that I’m suffocating inside of a bell jar throughout the day. (Mellow dramatic? Not at this point in my life. That’s just truth. Having a regular job is really hard for me.)

So it is nice to consider that perhaps, instead of thinking of my choice to pursue being a full-time entrepreneur causing burden to my family, my partner, and myself, that I am, instead, doing something courageous with my life.

It’s quite lovely to think of myself of someone who is taking calculated risks and boldly pursing the life that I feel so strongly called to live.

When I’m dancing on my front lawn and making TikToks and recording myself speaking, I am sure that most people assume all of that comes easily and naturally to me. And, sure, some of it does. I’m an only child, so I’ve literally been dancing and playing alone for my entire life. But, not all of those actions come easily for me. It’s weird having people watch me dancing in my front yard or in my living room. It’s not comfortable or normal, and it isn’t something that I would typically do if I wasn’t trying to work as hard as I possibly can and give all that I can to grow my businesses.

So, today, I am grateful for the reminder that I am a brave person, courageously pursuing happiness with every fiber of my being. I’ll try to enjoy that thought for the remainder of this day, and perhaps I’ll be able to keep away the thoughts of doubt and/or guilt at least until tomorrow.

Until next time,

Saumirah

Foggy Today? Focus on the Future

What keeps you going when you’re just not feeling it as a creative entrepreneur?

As I’ve said before: Even if we completely love what we do, we won’t love every single minute of every single day of what we do.

For example: I absolutely love being an entrepreneur and directing dance programs. But I strongly dislike returning phone calls (I prefer emails 100%), organizing information into spreadsheets, ordering costumes, booking performance locations, and more. But I made myself do those things when I was directing in-person dance programs because the return on the investment was so great. The kids loved it, and families wanted it. (This is a story for another blog, but I actually really struggled with even beginning to develop a performance program because I wanted to be so process focused. I love teaching technique. Performing was a great experience for me personally, but I never felt compelled to find and facilitate performance opportunities for my dance students until families expressed that they desired this from my program.)

When I worked as a classroom teacher, I loved being with my students, creating community, and finding different ways to open those little minds to understand new concepts. However, I completely hated (strong word, but likely extremely accurate . . . ) parent-teacher conferences (they always gave me extreme anxiety, even when the kids were A+ students), decorating my classroom, updating bulletin boards, and most staff meetings. But I made myself do it because decorating my room with student work made the faces of my kiddos just glow with enthusiasm or because it helped parents know what was going on in our classroom. Again, the return on the investment was worth it.

So, when I’m hitting a slump (as I am right now), and when I don’t want to do anything business related, I try to focus on the return. I try to remind myself that all of the work I’m doing will result in either an end goal toward which I’m working or that the work of the daily grind will continue to fulfill me, provide helpful information to my audience and clients, or put good into the world in the way that I feel compelled to do.

In short, when the now is foggy (or what it’s just outright terrible, horrible, no good!), try to focus on that potentially fantastic future feeling. You might find that the future isn’t so far away and that you’ll receive your ROI sooner than you think. Fingers crossed! ;)

Forever filled with the audacity of hope,

Saumirah