I sometimes forget that it takes courage to live this way.

Courage is defined as “the ability to do something that frightens one” or “strength in the face of pain or grief.”

I was listening to a business podcast earlier today with 3 entrepreneurs on it, and one of the hosts stated that running a business takes courage.

It was good for me to be reminded of this fact because I rarely think of myself as a courageous person. In fact, I sometimes wonder to myself why I’ve been burdened with such an overwhelming desire to pursue happiness to the fullest, live to the point of tears, love with every ounce of my being, and refuse to settle for a “regular” 9 to 5 job where I feel like a cog in a wheel and inevitably (it usually takes me anywhere from 6 to 8 weeks) begin to feel a cloud of darkness looming over me each day when I’m going into any job and that I’m suffocating inside of a bell jar throughout the day. (Mellow dramatic? Not at this point in my life. That’s just truth. Having a regular job is really hard for me.)

So it is nice to consider that perhaps, instead of thinking of my choice to pursue being a full-time entrepreneur causing burden to my family, my partner, and myself, that I am, instead, doing something courageous with my life.

It’s quite lovely to think of myself of someone who is taking calculated risks and boldly pursing the life that I feel so strongly called to live.

When I’m dancing on my front lawn and making TikToks and recording myself speaking, I am sure that most people assume all of that comes easily and naturally to me. And, sure, some of it does. I’m an only child, so I’ve literally been dancing and playing alone for my entire life. But, not all of those actions come easily for me. It’s weird having people watch me dancing in my front yard or in my living room. It’s not comfortable or normal, and it isn’t something that I would typically do if I wasn’t trying to work as hard as I possibly can and give all that I can to grow my businesses.

So, today, I am grateful for the reminder that I am a brave person, courageously pursuing happiness with every fiber of my being. I’ll try to enjoy that thought for the remainder of this day, and perhaps I’ll be able to keep away the thoughts of doubt and/or guilt at least until tomorrow.

Until next time,

Saumirah

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